Everything I love doing has gone to shit. I don’t really have any motivation to do anything anymore. I don’t like wasting my energy on all the pointless day to day bullshit. Why should I. Its not like people really give a fuck nowadays.

If I was really meant to be happy I would be. Otherwise I don’t have a fucking clue how I’m supposed to be. Life is just not easy for me. And yea who am I to think that it should be, I guess I just hoped to be one of the people who are actually happy and with peace with themselves. But nope.

Being stressed is an understatement. Everything is just sucking. Terribly. The worst is I really don’t know what to do about anything anymore.